I Will Follow




Over the past year, Chris Tomlin's song I Will Follow has been a special one to me.
The Lord used the lyrics well over a year ago
 to help spur my heart to follow Him to a small country in East Africa.
{a country with which I fell in love and my heart longs to return}

when we've sang this song over the past year, 
my heart always beats a resounding {yes}.
Lord, I will follow.
wherever you go, i'll go.

I just never knew that the journey would go in this direction.

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a couple months ago I had some weird health symptoms.
kinda par-for-the-course around here, right? it's always something.
some weird weakness and tingling along my left arm and leg.
got a bit worried about a stroke, but it went away, and so life went on
and we kinda forgot about it.

forgot about it until about a month later when the symptoms returned.

so, fast-forward through lots of doctors and tests,
and we're getting pretty close to knowing some answers.
what we do know is that it's not a stroke, seizure, tumor, or blood clot.

which leaves other kinda more serious, kinda scary answers.

tomorrow morning I have one more round of MRIs.
we are very hopeful that these will give us some more definitive answers.
a clear MRI is good news.
really, really, really good news.
burst into tears-of-relief good news.

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Chris Tomlin's song says

Who you love, I'll love
How you serve I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you 

and that's the prayer of my heart.
wherever, however, whenever He leads,
I.will.follow.

what I believed about God 2 months ago?
that He's all-powerful, all-Sovereign, faithful, loving, merciful?
it's still true.
even in the face of a potentially scary diagnosis,
it's.still.true.

What I believed about God 2 months ago, I choose to believe today
and tomorrow. and the day after that.
{come what may}.

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so, friends that have loved us, thank-you for praying with us and for us.


may our heart's response mirror Job's - 
when, 
upon receiving devastating news of the loss of his children and possessions,
he fell on the ground in worship, saying

Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
   and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
   may the name of the LORD be praised.”

yes.
 come what may after tomorrow's test,
{may the name of the LORD be praised.}

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Chris Tomlin's song.

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Danna said...

I will be praying dear friend. I pray that you get some answers and that all is well. xoxo

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