To Matt...




You are an infinitely patient, loving father. Thank-you for reflecting His love to Grant and Grace...they love you so much, as do I.

Happy Father's day, My Sweet.
























Sharing!




Grant was sharing his construction toys with Grace! He was telling her all about the front-end loader, the excavator, and all! :)

Half & Half




Mmm...I finally have more half-and-half for my coffee. Truly, there is no substitute! I've been out for several days, and in a pinch Grant's 2% milk will be tolerable. But, oh my goodness the half and half is just so good! What a nice start to the weekend - a good cup of coffee and a wonderful husband who let me sleep in this morning!

Beautiful!




It's a beautiful morning here - I sit enjoying my cup of coffee with the windows open! Grace is asleep, all swaddled up (how she LOVES to sleep!), and Grant is soooo happily playing with his new truck his Grandpa Fred got him. What a nice morning!

And, I'm officially 6.8 pounds down on my road to pre-pregnancy weight! I'm glad we're done with having kids, because this losing pregnancy weight stuff is hard! uggh!

I think we're going to eat lunch (tortilla soup!) outside on our patio - something I LOVE doing!

Happy Sunday, all!

Happy Due Date Day, Baby Girl!




Grace,

9 months ago 2 pink lines changed our lives. I was thrilled to be pregnant, but was such a mix of emotions! Little did I know how much the next months would hold...hyperemesis, 3 pulmonary embolisms, pre-eclampsia - what a journey it would be to get to the day I would hold you in my arms!

But, looking back on this pregnancy saga, my heart is full of wonder. The day I found out I was pregnant with you, I wrote this in my pregnancy journal:

I'm also just praying that no matter what, I'll be able to sense the Lord's presence in all of this. That's what I really want - to be able to feel the hand of God on our lives.

Although I would've preferred to do with out the many hospitalizations, my prayer from last September was overwhelmingly answered. Although in the midst of it all I sometimes wondered what in the world the Lord's plan was, I definitely sensed His presence in it all. The morning of my first pulmonary embolism, I sat at the kitchen table, enjoying a belated Christmas brunch with my parents. My chest hurt, and I thought it was a pulled muscle from tripping the night before - little did I know how serious my chest pain really was! The Lord gave my Matria nurse incredible wisdom to hear my symptoms over the phone and send me straight to the ER.

And, Grace, the Lord continued to give us all of the right doctors at the right times to protect both you and me through an incredibly long 33 1/2 weeks. I am amazed that you and I could be so healthy, after months of health difficulties.

You are such a miracle baby, Miss Grace. I think I will never, ever forget that life-altering moment in the OR when I heard your first little squeak of a cry. You brought tears to my eyes at one minute old, sweet girl, as you entered this world screaming.

My heart does wonder what could have been had we been able to make it longer into the pregnancy. I feel like my body held on as long as possible...through the nausea, the pain, the exhaustion... to be able to grow you as strong as possible. I wish that you didn't have to have any nicu time, but even through the nicu journey, I saw the Lord answer our prayers for you over and over again. Here's a prayer I wrote for you at just 24 hours old:

I know you love Grace more than I do. I have to trust in that. You’ll take care of her, just as you’ve taken care of me and her these past months of pregnancy. Please, Lord, let her sleep peacefully tonight. Let her rest without laboring too hard to breathe. Please let her lungs mature faster than we thought would be possible. I pray that even in a few hours when I call the nicu for an update we’ll get just fantastic news.

And, Sweet Baby Grace, when I called the nicu that morning, we did get fantastic news - you were breathing easier, with no continuing concern of intubation, and your saturation levels continued to get better from that day on. Even the neonatologist told us that you were progressing faster than "textbook" babies do - the Lord was working, for sure!

As I continue to "decompress" from all of the saga of this pregnancy, I am so in love with you, sweet Grace, and am in awe of the Lord's working in our lives. He is truly the creator and sustainer of life, I exalt and praise His name, "for in perfect faithfulness, the Lord has done marvelous things, things planned long ago. " (Isaiah 25:1)

Happy Due Date, Baby Girl. May your life be a testimony of God's amazing grace.

Stretch!




Before Matt went running recently, he started to stretch in our entryway. Well, Grant saw him and said, "stretch like daddy!" and then did this....

First Outfit




Grace is finally starting to fit into some of her clothes - especially the "newborn" sized stuff. Here's one of her first outfits!



And just another random cute shot - I love her little cheeks!


Thanks, Laura!




I always think of one of my very good friends - Laura - when I organize our house! I met Laura in Dallas - she lived in the apartment right next door in Dallas Seminary student housing. Her husband worked the night shift at the time, so as Matt would study in the evenings Laura and I would hang out. She'd sit and chat with me as I graded papers, and she listened to sooo many of my teaching difficulties! She was the kind of friend that I just loved at first meeting - she's warm, beautiful, sincere, and sooo sweet. And, her love for her Savior is so very genuine and just makes her radiate.

Anyway, her apartment was always so picked up, and I can remember commenting on it one time. She told me her mother always said that everything should have a place, and then you can put everything back where it goes.

As I've cleaned and organized for 7 more years since she told me that, I've come to the conclusion that that is truly the key to household organization! It's all the stuff that never has a place that drives me crazy! So, I've been on a mission to find a place for all that stuff! It truly helps me feel better! I do get a tad overly-excited about organization, though.

So, thanks, laura, for your organization help. And, by the way, Laura did teach me much more than the fact that everything should have its place...she's a wonderful friend, and I miss her and wish we still lived right next door to each other.

Sweet Grace


















Another Mile Down!




Sunday evening I did my first post-partum run, and it felt so inexplicably good. About 10 minutes in it felt so good I was close to tears - it just felt that good to be running again. it reminded me of how incredibly good I felt last summer, eating well, running regularly, and enjoying our family - I guess I hadn't realized, fully, how deeply this pregnancy had worn on me - on us. When I hit the pavement Sunday night it just felt so *normal*, and after these past 8 months, *normal* is SO good.

So, as I sit here sweaty after my 2nd run, I am overwhelmed with relief that I never have to be pregnant again. I am obviously so very thankful for the times that we've been pregnant and our sweet, much-worked-for children! - but I am thankful this stage of our lives can be over!

So, another mile down! I look forward to hopefully hundreds more!

Tuesday morning




sound asleep in her bouncy seat



the sad face from not liking the flash!



and,when I went to feed her later, she started sucking her thumb! It was so cute - Grant never sucked his thumb, so it was a surprise to see!



Solo with 2 Kiddos, Day 1




Matt's gone the majority of this week, leaving me solo with 2 kiddos for the first time. We both wish that his first trip away weren't so long, but we'll make it work! Grace ate at 10 o'clock last night, then slept until 3 a.m., and then slept until 6 a.m. - so, essentially, she only woke up one time during the night to eat! So, since she's sleeping so well Matt and I thought that I could handle both kiddos. (Watch tonight be the night she just freaks out on me! )

Grant has been playing happily all morning, and Miss Gracie is doing what she does - eating and sleeping!

Right now the problem is that Grant is not napping! He was quiet in his crib for almost 30 minutes, and I had just finished up feeding Grace and was going to nap myself - and then Grant started asking for pudding. I usually ignore it, but today I tried a new strategy - I just immediately got him, and put him in his chair and gave him the pudding. He ate it, but he wasn't *starving*. So, after the pudding he went back to bed, where he's currently making dinosaur noises.

Cheesecake





I think cheesecake is very close to being the perfect food. I just absolutely love it. It's by far my favorite dessert, and I could easily, (and very happily ) eat it almost daily.

Matt and I were both getting kind of house-crazy after being here for almost 2 weeks after we brought Gracie home, and Thursday morning he woke up and said, "let's go out!" So, after everyone's nap times, we went to Babies 'R Us to return some stuff (a maternity shirt that I bought 3 days before I had Grace! ), and to buy a new carseat. We then went to The Cheesecake Factory, which I had a gift card for. So, we got a wonderful appetizer and entrees and then split their vanilla bean cheesecake. It was to.die.for good!

It was also just a very nice outing as a family of 4. Grant did great in the restaurant - one key to eating out with a toddler is to make sure they're hungry when you go, so they'll occupy themselves by eating! Grace stayed covered in her carseat the whole time, sleeping. It was just a nice afternoon.

And then, more cheesecake Friday! My father-in-law and step-mother-in-law came for the day, so after spending time with them Matt and I went out for coffee and dessert at another restaurant we had a gift card to. We both got our own desserts, I got more cheesecake! It was also very, very good! I'm now savoring the memory of both decadent slices as I have officially started on my "back-to-pre-pregnancy weight" journey. My carrot sticks and tomato soup don't have quite the same allure!

May 11, 2002




Happy Anniversary, My Sweet Husband!

It's hard to believe that 7 years ago today I married the love of my life. I can so remember waking up on the morning of May 11, 2002...I looked at the clock and thought "it's today!" I can remember how much fun it was to get our hair and make-up done, and how weird it felt that the day had actually arrived.

How little did I know then, however, that the next seven years would be so incredibly wonderful. I knew I loved Matt, but he has just amazed me over the past seven years with his patience, his kindness, and his deep devotion and commitment to myself and our family. I hope we get many, many more years together, my love.

At the rehearsal (look how young and thin I was!)



Leaving the church, being showered with confetti!



The cake, which I still think was beautiful! And I'm still amazed that one of my college girlfriends made it for us!





The surprise of a lifetime- a new car!

well, thanks!




Thanks for all the comments on my blog! I didn't mean to force y'all to comment, but it was nice to know that I'm not writing to myself.

Whew!




I have spent more time than I should have trying to get the comment form to work on this blog, but I finally succeeded! So, now y'all have to comment, because I spent so much time on it!

I haven't finalized the entire format, but I'm getting closer! I love this new blog template and all the colors - I wanted something new for spring and summer!

Pictures for Friday





Grace is growing!




So, we had our "newborn" visit with our pediatrician today. Since he doesn't deliver at Community North, he hadn't met Grace yet. So, it was just a general check-up and weight check.

Sunday night, the last time she was weighed in the NICU, Grace was 5 pounds, 6.8 ounces. This morning at the ped's, she was 5 pounds, 10.8 ounces!! So, basically 4 ounces in 4 days!! YAY Grace! Grow grow grow!

The ped. said that one of the primary concerns with preemies is weight gain, and he usually makes his preemie patients come back for weight checks. He then said with Miss Grace's great gain in the nicu, and then the 4 ounces in 4 days since we've been home, he wasn't concerned at all! yay! (of course, we can always go in for a free weight check if we get worried, but she seems to be growing well! And, just FYI, the nicu wanted the babies to gain at least 1/2 an ounce a day, so she's even surpassing their standards!)

And, since Grace is gaining so well, he said we can stop waking her at night to eat! THAT made me happy, as I forgot, somehow, how exhausting this waking every 2 hour business is! Grace slept for 5 1/2 hours during the night last night, and I woke up, panicking that she hadn't eaten, but apparently we can let her sleep when she wants to sleep at night!

The ped. also said that we might have to adjust her age for developmental milestones, although he said most preemies catch up fast. I told him that with a son that didn't walk until 19 1/2 months and now zooms around the house, I don't get too concerned about slow developmental milestones! ;-)

At least they're recycling...




I guess at least they're recycling!